poverty sucks

do you know how it feels to not be able to go out because you have nothing to wear?. as in!. yes, you have clothes but fit only inside the house in a sense that they are really household clothes and you cannot wear those other good clothes because if you do, you will have nothing to wear during wash days in school. poverty is such a terrible terrible thing. it is so sad live like this.. always thinking of what to wear next as if there where lots of choices when in fact i only own less than a dozen shirts and even fewer pants. new pants of shirts are not options for me since i have lots of stuff to prioritize first such as my shampoos and soap and papers for schoolworks and the like. it sort of depresses me but i do not allow it to get to me so much because i do not want to wallow in pain. as if this was such a grave problem, but then again i am an adolescent and being an adolescent, i am entitle to my fair share of narcissism. its not that i want to have lots and lots of clothes.. i just want to look presentable and neat so that i can have more confidence and i can be more sure of myself..  well that's it.. someday life will turn around and i will be able to get what i need and what i want.