The Look, The Font

Tuesday, July 8th, 2008

 

I wonder what website was that, where i can edit my pictures and do stuffs like filtering and thingies that one can do in photoshop. Anyways tomorrow is a big day for me becasue at last im going to do my job as the current President of our mountaineering club. YAh, I am a President and I aint one bit happy about it. Its not that I dont trust myself to do a President thingy, its just that I dont trust my attitude. I am not really driven to serve a club which has no clear basis or foundation. Now, how did i become a president of this club?. No one voted for me, its just that im the logical choice to keep the club alive. I never thought id be caught in a position like this. I dont like this responsibility and I dont feel the impulse to go and get things going because first of all i dont really want to join in the activities of the club. I just came to be here because my friends are there and because all of other members are my friends. But then again, we are divided into 2 groups and we dont have the same spot/places of interests. Our faction would want to go to relaxing places where we could go as friends only and no other club rules or whatever is going to compromise our actions. This matter is too complicated for an outsider to understand. Only i can understand this and only I can put an end to this. But then again because im a coward at facing other people’s comments and criticims, here i going giving myself an extra handful of work and trying to convince myself that this is all for the better. Well this better be good or I would really suffer. GOd I hate the general assembly of school club presidents, I cant imagine a room full of pussies and goody two shoes. Anyways I got reprimanded the last time because i didnt join the general assembly. Well Excuse me!. who would want to in the first place? God i could go to hell when im there. Anyways whatever. gotta go and make a that collage ive been putting off doing. ciao!.

So this is boring, the internet connection is messed up!.Its 9:51 pm and im wondering why I dont seem to be moving into personal growth and fullness. Its like im full to bursting but im empty after all. I think I need to do something good. I did not join our theology class earlier and im thinking, will I be debarred in this subject?. I think its too early for that, but since its a TTH class which allows only for 7 absences, i may have reached a point dangerously close to the limit. What kind of student am I? IM supposed to be graduating, and IM supposed to be more responsible but Hello!. I think I dont want to grow up.